Lick Me Like Candy

Lick me like candy.

Taste the sweetness.

Feel the sugar rush.

Are you addicted?



Unwrap me gently.

Savor the flavor.

Nibble me all over.

Want more?



I'm chocolate with gold.

Expensive with each bite.

Melt me in your mouth.

Do you deserve me?



Roll me around your tongue.

Feel my silky texture.

Devour me slowly.

Want another taste?

Kiss Me

Hold me close.

Touch me tenderly.

Kiss me softly.

Don't ever let go.



Stroke my hair.

Massage my skin.

Kiss my neck.

Never stop.



Taste my lips.

Feel my thighs.

Kiss my cheek.

Keep going.



Squeezing me tightly.

Suckle my breasts.

Kiss my stomach.

Desiring more.



Pull me in.

Spread my legs.

Kiss my...

Make me beg.



Press against me.

Look deep into me.

Kiss me passionately.

I need you.

Yearning Desires

Yearning for more.

My desires are strong.

I pick up the pieces,

The tiny shards left behind.

I wanted to cry...

Often I run.

Escape the pain.

Ignore the loss.



Yearning for the unknown.

My desires over whelm me.

Fixated on becoming whole.

There is so much more to love.

Hiding kept me from knowing,

From seeing what I missed.

Passion runs through these veins.

Drive gets me pumping.

My heart has become opened.



Yearning for excitement.

My desires come alive.

Pulling myself up.

Looking past the fears.

Feeling more than ever before.

Allowing for more to come.

Seeking the thrills.

Trying to experience it all.

Greedy for this new life.

This yearning desire sets me free.

If You Want Me

Can you make me laugh?

It's not hard, I promise.

Are you a lover?

Can you calm me down?

Let's not fight, just hug me tightly.

Want to play?

Want to flirt?

Come and tackle me.

Let's see how strong you are.

Want me to beg?

I'll beg, beg you to treat me right.

Want my lies or the truth?

You'll know when I lie,

My eyes will tell you the truth.

Want to make me smile?

Get me a gumball machine toy.

Want to know my addiction?

Skeeball is one. You are the other.

Want to know my fears?

Being vulnerable. Letting you inside.

Want to know my weakness?

Smiles and sensitivity.

Can you imagine us?

Let me tell you what I see.

Want to get close?

Open your heart,

I will let go of my fears.

Can I run faster than you?

Not if I want you catch me.

Want to know a secret?

I love being treated like a lady.

Want to know my sins?

Let's talk under the covers.

Want to know my dreams?

I have so many.

What's important to me?

Friends, family and you.

What do I want?

Your arms around me.

What will I take?

Only what you give me.

Too much truth for you?

Get over it if you want me.

Still Strong

It has occurred to me what all I've been through. Everything I have seen, all I have felt, the things that have traumatized me. I never had time to sit still long enough to let some things take hold of me. That was when I was younger. I have been through more things I'd care to admit to. I have been blessed to survive some of the things that some would have not gotten through on their own. I kept going even through the quicksand that was trying to swallow me up. Sometimes I went in slow motion, while other times I just skipped forward trying to forget. Trying to erase the bad. I would smile really big and laugh with my friends. My friends were my savior all these years. Even if they didn't know what I was going through. I didn't always let people know my dark side. I kept part of me hidden. Embarrassed and ashamed. I've learned since then that it's okay to have these feelings. It's okay to have someone to lean on. It's alright if someone doesn't understand. Not everyone can deal. Not everyone has walked my shoes. I am thankful that I have been so strong. Strong to deal with so much for so many years without the support most would get. I keep going. I then hit some harder times. I finally slammed into a wall. Had to face up to everything. I felt as if I've been drowning in the deepest part of the cold ocean all alone. I've been swimming for far too long trying to keep from going under. No land in sight. No hand reaching down to lift me out. I realized that I was consumed with my past. The past that I tried so hard to escape, to forget. It's recognizing the pain that seems to be healing me. Dealing with the dark by shining the light on it. Stop running away and face my demons. Stand and fight! Fight for my happiness. For my freedom of what has kept me tied down for far too long. I am not perfect. I will keep struggling. I will keep having to fight. I don't have to be afraid anymore. I am doing what is best for me now. Taking control of my sanity. Taking control of myself. Hugging myself instead of beating myself down day after day. I am still healing. I am still in battle. Though I know I will win this time. I won't back down. I will stay strong no matter what happens next. I will get stronger. Stronger than ever before. I am positive. That is all I need. To believe in myself!

Mirror Image

I look into the mirror and see the same.

An unattractive girl standing before me.

I have changed inside, more than once.

I put more effort into caring for myself.

The results are the same, I'm still just plain.

The outer me wants to look like a movie star.

The inner me wants to feel like I'm 21.

I look into the mirror, not looking any different.

Trying so hard to push myself.

Each passing day I stay afloat.

Careful about what I do now.

Cautious about what I eat.

This mirror of mine has left me beat.

Opened up for suggestions, ready for a change.

I get more demanding each day.

Escaping my old world, my old way.

Losing the pain, losing the weight.

This mirror of mine will pay.

So Many Years Ahead

So many years ahead.

Too many years wasted.



Too much time lost.

Too much of being alone.

Too much depression.

Too much what if.

Too much crying.

Too much lost hope.

Too much, too much.



I'm ready for a life.

I'm ready to live.

I'm ready for passion.

I'm ready for the sun.

I'm ready to be lifted.

I'm ready to smile.

I'm ready, I'm ready.



So many years ahead.

Too many years wasted.



Too much sorrow.

Too much dreaming.

Too much misery.

Too much negative.

Too much feeling sorry.

Too much anger.

Too much, too much.



I'm ready to start new.

I'm ready to let go.

I'm ready to give in.

I'm ready to let everything in.

I'm ready to open my heart.

I'm ready for happiness.

I'm ready, I'm ready.

Obsessive Fantasy

Silently I whisper your name,

In hopes that you may be doing the same.

Gently a breeze wisps across my face.

Is this a sign that you are thinking of me at your place?

I lie back on the bed,

Placing my arms under my head.

Drifting asleep, I am thinking of only you.

Maybe you are doing the same thing, too.

Fast asleep, I'm in R.E.M.

Dreaming pleasantly of loving him.


Thursday, March 25, 2010 4:28 PM

My Love For You

My heart fills up with love for you.

The wall that I built years back has fallen down.

No longer running away, only waiting to walk next to you.

Wanting to hold you close; no more pushing.

Still blushing as your words touch me tenderly.

Softened by your voice, I open up my soul.

The past was new and heartbreaking.

The present is warm and learning.

The future holds the best of you and me.

I never loved so deeply, ecstatic it's with you.

Falling for you was not my intention,

Being your friend drew me in closer.

Now my heart aches so badly for you.

When I hear from you I can't stop smiling.

Each day I love you even more.

Waiting to be near you makes my desires stronger.

I'm so happily and forever in love with you. <3


Friday, March 26, 2010 3:13 PM

You...

I accepted everything about you, loving who you are... While you looked for every fault of mine, keeping me afar.

I was hopeful that one day there could be... You kept looking for reasons why there never should be.

I opened up my soul to you.... You can't even muster out an 'I love You.'

It's okay because I can go on with or without you.... And someday maybe you'll realize what I truly meant to you.


Original post on FaceBook: Tuesday, December 14, 2010 7:33 AM

Slammed Door

Wronged so many times before,
I find myself walking out the door.
Time and time again I look the other way,
Listening to another excuse for the day.
This time I'm out that door,
Having the final score.
You want to play this through,
Do it alone drinkng your brew.
You say your sorry like many times before,
This time you can say it to the door.
You tell me you can't live without me,
Test that theory and let's just see.
It's time to find someone new to adore,
Because this time I slammed the door!

Sunday, January 31, 2010
Current mood: sick
Category: Writing and Poetry

Control

In complete control you walk to me,
With one touch I'm on my knees.
Looking up in gentle grace,
I'm hypnotized by your face.
Like a stuffed doll stabbed with pins,
You dictate my head with blissful sins.
With a rush of heat my body fills with flames,
Being at your mercy I feel the shame.
My heart dances as you give me that stare.
Weak all over I feel stripped bare.
My soul opened for you to taint,
Exposed and feeling all over faint.
In the dark you whisper in my ear,
I can do more if you dare.


Saturday, January 30, 2010
Control Current mood: naughty
Category: Writing and Poetry

Currently listening:
Korn - Greatest Hits, Vol. 1
By KornRelease date: 2004-10-05

Change of Fate

I'm suddenly reminded of past mistakes,
Decisions I made that changed my fate.
If I had been less afraid,
Maybe I would not have pushed you away.
Thinking of you tortures my heart,
For the desires of you are ripping it apart.
I wish I knew if you felt the same,
So this chest pain might be tamed.

Whispering

Sitting alone with a dim light,
I think about the still night.
There is quite all around me,
Except for the faint whispering he puts inside me.
I feel an ache in my heart,
Forgetting him is unfinished art.
Recently I've seen his face,
This true love ended in fast pace.
It hurts seeing him married to another,
I wanted it to be me, not some other.
Years have swept me by,
Alone I sit and cry.
Will there ever be,
Another Love whispereing inside of me?

Tinkerbell

You showed up as a surprise,

How happy was I.

Cute as can be,

A gift for me.

You grew up beautiful,

From four weeks to twelve years.

Your Love Filled my heart full;

Saying good-bye brought so many tears;

For the love I have inside,

Will only blossom, never die.

In Heaven you'll be,

Waiting for Paco and Me.

BooBoo and Miss Pandy are there with you now,

Giving you kisses and soft meows.

Letting go was the hardest thing for me to do,

But it was out of love from me to you.

All my crying has made my eyes swell,

For there is only one Tinkerbell.

Pale Blue Moon

Looking up at the moon,
I make a wish that I will see you soon.
Softly I close my stary eyes,
Wondering if daydreaming of you is wise.
Singing to the sound of my thumping heart,
I realize we are worlds apart.
Looking back up at that pale blue moon high in the sky,
I think about what would have been if you hadn't been shy.
Then it comes to me so clearly,
If things had been different, I wouldn't be thinking of you so dearly.
Time has changed and have I,
What a pleasant thought that there maybe a reason why.

Sunday, January 08, 2006
Current mood: relaxed
Currently listening:My ImmortalBy EvanescenceRelease date: 08 December, 2003

Grim Reaper

Wicked as the night,
I dream a vivid dream of Anxiety and fright.
A shadowy figure appears,
Filling my pounding heart up with fears.
Trouble comes to mind,
I run because help I must find.
Turning my head to look back,
Fast the image comes to attack!
Panicky I fall down,
Suddenly appeared a small ghost town.
Hurridly I stood up,
But not before my time was up.
The frigid shadow came to take me home,
But not to any place I'd ever known.
Unwillingly I must give in,
Maybe this Grim Reaper would finally win.

Sunday, January 08, 2006
Current mood: sleepy Category: Writing and Poetry
Currently watching:Final Destination (New Line Platinum Series)Release date: 01 June, 2004

Wildfire

Actions spread like wildfire, whether it be an opened smile, a yawn or a person's enraged anger. Like a domino effect, everyone will react to the emotions of one. Happy and smiling, this individual will brighten the day of many. Each will sing the tune of delight in their heart and soul, lifting their spirits. Now someone yawns widely with their mouth uncovered. Like a chain reaction, the people around will reluctantly begin yawning. Before realized, the people nearby them will even start yawning. Talking about it may cause a sluggish yawn. This is how wildfire happens. For no valid reason, one person is outraged. So angry, he talks of killing. This one person spreads his rage amongst many. Like a mob of gangsters, he starts a dangerous cult. His small army feels his anger and are ready to destroy. This is when it happens. The wildfire spreads fast, killing many. The klan becomes out of control. All because of one deranged person spreading his hate widely. Who could be so deadly that this could happen? This mind controling leader was Adolf Hitler.

Thursday, January 12, 2006
Current mood: thirsty Category: Writing and Poetry
Currently watching:Angel - Season TwoRelease date: 02 September, 2003

Making A Wish!

Simple minded country folks,
Big bellied eating goats,
I Wish I may,
I wish I might,
Get near you tonight!
Beer gutted lumberjack men,
Lazy loud over fed hens,
I wish I may,
I wish I might,
Take the very next flight!
Absent minded dope heads,
Extra padded gun crazy feds,
I wish I may,
I wish I might,
Catch you in my sight!
Bubble headed teenage chicks,
Waxy melting candle sticks,
I wish I may,
I wish I might,
Hold you in my arms real tight!

Friday, January 13, 2006
Current mood: giddy Category: Writing and Poetry
Currently watching:Charmed

A Night In Hell

Scarier than fright,
Crashing through the night,
I had this creepy insight,
Of a stranger under a dim light.
He was crouched down low,
Leaning over some hoe,
With a knife in his hand,
And blood dripping from his watch band,
I saw myself screaming as I ran.
Who in the hell was that crazy man?
Shit! Who the fuck cares,
I'm out of here!

Sunday, January 15, 2006
Current mood: silly Category: Writing and Poetry